Today has been a hard hard day..
I am so emotionally drained that all I want to do is sleep. But I feel like writing sometimes clears my head. Even though I am not even a good writer... I think it just helps to get your words and thoughts out. Today our sweet little doggy Frank passed away :-(
I was babysitting for some friends last night and came home around 9 pm to a very sick dog. Frank had thrown up and was not acting like himself at all. Shane had said that after throwing up he let him go outside but once outside Frank just collapsed. He got back up but slowly walked to a dark corner of the backyard. Looking back on it now we think he knew it was his time and he was trying to find a quiet spot to go in peace. After a while Shane went and picked him up (he wouldn't walk) and brought him inside and laid him in his kennel. This is how I found them when I got home. Shane just sitting by Frank petting him and trying to make him comfortable. I could tell he was not doing good. We had never seen him act this sick. He couldn't even lift up his head. He just laid there panting hard like he was trying to catch his breath. We didn't know what to do for him, so we just stayed with him for awhile. He did start to act a little better. Not back to normal, but he would somewhat lift his head and reposition himself. We decided there was nothing we could do for him at that point of the night, but in the morning if he wasn't feeling better that we would take him to the vet. I think we both knew it wasn't going to get better though. I didn't sleep much. I tossed and turned and kept wanting to get up and check on him. But I didn't in fear of how I might find him if I did. Finally Shane's alarm went off around 5:15 am and I told him to go check on Frank. I got up too but just waited for him in the hallway. When Shane came towards me he said Frank has passed in his sleep. He said he looked so peaceful though and looked just like he always does when he sleeps. We really think Frank died of some type of heart failure. Though we really will never know, this is what makes the most sense. We kind of knew this day would come, but we just didn't know when. We adopted Frank when he was 1 year old and shortly after adopting him we found out he had heart worms. Though we started him on some heartworm medicine once we found out, we knew that we would never really know the damage that had already been done to his heart. Looking back on how he acted, he had many signs and symptoms of heart damage from heart worms. Of course I feel very sad and wish there was more we could of done for him last night, I know there really wasn't anything we could do for him. This happens, often really. But it doesn't make it any easier. Especially with this crazy preggo hormones I am having. We know that he went the best way he possibly could. He didn't seem to be in pain for that long and the last thing we heard from him was his sweet snoring in his kennel before we went to bed. Please just be thinking of our family as we go through this. It will get better of course, but today we are very very sad.
Here are just a few of my my favorite pictures of the little guy...
I was babysitting for some friends last night and came home around 9 pm to a very sick dog. Frank had thrown up and was not acting like himself at all. Shane had said that after throwing up he let him go outside but once outside Frank just collapsed. He got back up but slowly walked to a dark corner of the backyard. Looking back on it now we think he knew it was his time and he was trying to find a quiet spot to go in peace. After a while Shane went and picked him up (he wouldn't walk) and brought him inside and laid him in his kennel. This is how I found them when I got home. Shane just sitting by Frank petting him and trying to make him comfortable. I could tell he was not doing good. We had never seen him act this sick. He couldn't even lift up his head. He just laid there panting hard like he was trying to catch his breath. We didn't know what to do for him, so we just stayed with him for awhile. He did start to act a little better. Not back to normal, but he would somewhat lift his head and reposition himself. We decided there was nothing we could do for him at that point of the night, but in the morning if he wasn't feeling better that we would take him to the vet. I think we both knew it wasn't going to get better though. I didn't sleep much. I tossed and turned and kept wanting to get up and check on him. But I didn't in fear of how I might find him if I did. Finally Shane's alarm went off around 5:15 am and I told him to go check on Frank. I got up too but just waited for him in the hallway. When Shane came towards me he said Frank has passed in his sleep. He said he looked so peaceful though and looked just like he always does when he sleeps. We really think Frank died of some type of heart failure. Though we really will never know, this is what makes the most sense. We kind of knew this day would come, but we just didn't know when. We adopted Frank when he was 1 year old and shortly after adopting him we found out he had heart worms. Though we started him on some heartworm medicine once we found out, we knew that we would never really know the damage that had already been done to his heart. Looking back on how he acted, he had many signs and symptoms of heart damage from heart worms. Of course I feel very sad and wish there was more we could of done for him last night, I know there really wasn't anything we could do for him. This happens, often really. But it doesn't make it any easier. Especially with this crazy preggo hormones I am having. We know that he went the best way he possibly could. He didn't seem to be in pain for that long and the last thing we heard from him was his sweet snoring in his kennel before we went to bed. Please just be thinking of our family as we go through this. It will get better of course, but today we are very very sad.
Here are just a few of my my favorite pictures of the little guy...
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| My all time favorite picture of him. He always was just snuggled up on the couch. |
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| The day we got Frank! What a cutie he was! |
We will miss you so much Frank. You were such a sweet dog that wouldn't harm a thing. We enjoyed our last four years with you more than you will ever know!
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ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, my heart is hurting for you. He looked like such a good, sweet dog. And those eyes, wow! Having lost my dog less than a year ago, I understand what you're going through and I am so very sorry. I will be praying for you and your family.
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