So here I am still up, not sleeping once again. This has become a nightly occurance for me and I am not happy about it. I believe that I am suffering from some type of wedding anxiety. Please tell me this is normal? Now let me explain myself... when I said wedding anxiety, I don't mean that I am worried about getting married. I have no doubts about that, I am just becoming overwhelming stressed with all these little details that going into wedding planning. Yes, it has been lots of fun. Really fun actually...up until right now. I think because my countdown till the wedding has gone under 70 days it has become very real that this wedding is happening very soon. Which is beyond exciting, but also very scary. Scary because I tend to be a perfectionist and a worry wart. I get this from my wonderful mother :) So, naturally I am worried over ever little detail that goes into the wedding. I want it all to be perfect. I mean, who doesn't? This day is something I have dreamed about for so long. I just want it to be everything I dreamed about and more. Almost every night for the last two weeks I have either not been able to sleep because my mind is thinking of everything I still have to do or I am having crazy dreams of my wedding day and how nothing is ready. I finally broke down last night. I just don't like this stress! So, my sweet mother sat me down and we made a big list of everything that we still have to do. Even though the list is long, it made me feel so much better to have everything written down. Why don't I make lists more often? We even got to cross something off the list today! Who knew crossing something off a checklist could feel so good? I also keep reminding myself of something Shane told me this past weekend. He told me to stop worring, of course. And he said that all the really matters that day is that we will become husband and wife. The details don't matter. (Sigh)......now that makes me feel good.
Had to show off my pretty little necklace my sister Clarissa gave me for Christmas. I just love it.
I understand your stress, but I agree with Shane. It is just one day. The important thing is the life you two are about to embark upon. Expect that things won't be "perfect", but no one will ever know but you. Enjoy the ride for the next 60+ days. You'll never be here again. :)
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